Need a break from reality...

Today I'm struggling with exhaustion, knowing its because I'm staying up too late watching reruns of "House" on Netflix, but I also know I'm not eating very well either. Actually damn near eating nothing which isn't healthy I know but that's what summer does too me...oh well.

I'm also struggling with the whole sahm mom thing. Its wearing me down to the core this summer. I'm busier than ever with my photography and still have 450 photos to go through for the wedding earlier this month, as well as a 2yr shoot, AND being a mom. I'm doing OK on the mom part except I yell too much. Working from home is so frustrating, you don't get anything done! Between feeding these yay-hoos and them asking to go swimming every 5 minutes or fighting over logos...ya...
At the same time my role as a wife is just in shambles. Not happy means husbands not getting any "nookie" so he's not happy either. But he's not really trying to make things better other than being mad that I'm working and not hanging out with him. Sorry dude, being a mom all day is wearing me out. Being cook and disciplinarian while you sit at the computer doing whatever it is you're doing isn't cool either. So if I hide myself away to do things I need to do you can't be mad at me, its not any different if we both worked outside the house on different shifts. Oy! Really do men not get this? I feel like the long talk last night about it all didn't help so I guess the cycle will continue for a few weeks till kids go back to school because I apparently don't know how to balance my life out right now... 

Socially Acceptable B.S.

I don't understand adult friendships...in highschool you got in an argument, were mad, got over it and were friends again.You actually hung out with friends, you had to respond to them because you saw them every day, you couldn't ignore them, and you excepted their other friendships and relationships but still valued the one between you and said person. As an adult you have friendships, you get in a discussion on Facebook, no less, and then they ignore you and the friendship dies because you can't see that person anymore and remember why you were friends in the first place.  And while you can still except new relationships and friendships formed you are no longer forced to remain close friends because your friendship is solely based on the next time you see each other. Sadly, fb is the only way I still have 90% of my friends. Partly because I moved 2hours away, partly because I had 4 children before i was even 27, and at the same time its because FB exists and it makes it so that that's all our friendships need to be. I'll be the first to admit I suck at calling anyone just to say "hey", always have been, but I'm working on it because once fb is gone we'll all be friendless. We don't know how else to be friends besides sharing our life stories and posting pics of our kids, pets, and food with everyone we may have met once last year. (Do not accept friend requests from people you don't know, its weird, creepy, and watch Catfish, you'll get it). Fb sucks. As a business owner I mean both their reach and their friendship destroying powers suck!