Today I'm struggling with exhaustion, knowing its because I'm staying up too late watching reruns of "House" on Netflix, but I also know I'm not eating very well either. Actually damn near eating nothing which isn't healthy I know but that's what summer does too me...oh well.
I'm also struggling with the whole sahm mom thing. Its wearing me down to the core this summer. I'm busier than ever with my photography and still have 450 photos to go through for the wedding earlier this month, as well as a 2yr shoot, AND being a mom. I'm doing OK on the mom part except I yell too much. Working from home is so frustrating, you don't get anything done! Between feeding these yay-hoos and them asking to go swimming every 5 minutes or fighting over logos...ya...
At the same time my role as a wife is just in shambles. Not happy means husbands not getting any "nookie" so he's not happy either. But he's not really trying to make things better other than being mad that I'm working and not hanging out with him. Sorry dude, being a mom all day is wearing me out. Being cook and disciplinarian while you sit at the computer doing whatever it is you're doing isn't cool either. So if I hide myself away to do things I need to do you can't be mad at me, its not any different if we both worked outside the house on different shifts. Oy! Really do men not get this? I feel like the long talk last night about it all didn't help so I guess the cycle will continue for a few weeks till kids go back to school because I apparently don't know how to balance my life out right now...
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